Sunkissed Trampoline....
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
hmmm.had some thoughts after everything was settled.i think all's well now,but i can't guarantee that it will be the same as before. ((:aniwae.these 2 weeks had been the same.school and home. and sian-ing.oh. went to celebrate JIM's birthday last friday.hahas. was suppose to be funn.but i dunno why i had a part of me still slightly not myself.other than that day, my other days were either in school or home.i actually like the time of walking to safra bus stop from school.it gives me time to think of the day's events.like what happened in school, and everything.after reading rayna's blog, i had some thinkings.i realised that it's been a year since the whole class got to know each other.since we form our cliques.our 2nd outing was to celebrate JIM's bdae at sakae.it was on the 16th of May 2007.fast forward one year later,not the same people went. there were addition and subtraction.through the past year.i have seen all of us grown and changed.no more innocent and happy ppl we were,but selfish and full of suspicious thoughts we've become.why has everything changed?or maybe its just us. we all just took so long to find out the deadly truth about each other.i only have my trusted "du-lan" friends in class now.i hope that we can last. ((:i took that long to find out about outside too.but thank you i had other friends who tried to pick me up.i know they might not last. but thank you anyway for those times.
i have been thinking about everything.
like if i had done this, would i have gotten the same results.
or would i have gotten something worst.
but i know that you cannot turn back the time to change events.
best is to cherish every moment you get.
make the best of everything.have i really changed over the past year?i actually dun feel it, but i can see from my dealings with people.why do we cry?as gong gong said~we cry cause we have feelings.cos we have the heart to feel.crying proves that you are still human.but what if i dont want to feel?then i will not be so sadd anymore.